Monday, January 30, 2012
The preteen paradox
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Indigestion?
This week I was prepping our dinner while Rose pulled a chair up to the kitchen counter to eat breakfast. Seeing me pull out an onion, Rose complained they hurt her eyes. I told her she could go eat at the kitchen table.
No, she said, I want to be with you. I miss being around you. Actually, when I'm away from you I get this strange pain in my chest. She pointed at her chest where she felt the discomfort. I don't know what that pain is she mumbled sounding puzzled, perplexed, and she trailed off by the end
Oh, I said, silenced by Rose's revelation. Touched by her genuine confusion over the feeling of loving someone. Saddened she really hadn't felt that before in a healthy way. I admitted to her we had a similar feeling when she went to visit her last foster family's house New Years week. She smiled, still a little baffled by this new physical feeling.
A good sensation, indeed.
No, she said, I want to be with you. I miss being around you. Actually, when I'm away from you I get this strange pain in my chest. She pointed at her chest where she felt the discomfort. I don't know what that pain is she mumbled sounding puzzled, perplexed, and she trailed off by the end
Oh, I said, silenced by Rose's revelation. Touched by her genuine confusion over the feeling of loving someone. Saddened she really hadn't felt that before in a healthy way. I admitted to her we had a similar feeling when she went to visit her last foster family's house New Years week. She smiled, still a little baffled by this new physical feeling.
A good sensation, indeed.
Monday, January 16, 2012
A photo in the meantime
In preparation for our April Disney trip, Rose helped me bake up leftover red and green M&Ms into cookies.
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| Mickey begins! |
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| Into the oven he goes. |
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| Mid-way baked. |
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| Baked and decorated. He should have had a frown though because.... |
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| Rose actually made me wait to take the picture while she put chocolate on her lips for this photo. Maybe she should become a photographer, because the photo turned out great. |
A year is nearly here
Things I haven't done:
1) Posted the second Christmas posting from Christmas day. Or maybe I haven't because it includes photos of us in our jammies? Hmmmm....
2) Completed the first year photo book I'm putting together to commemorate this first anniversary with Rose. I could be doing that now, but I was too excited to see the Betty White special.
But I don't really care thanks to the past year because I've learned:
1) There aren't enough hours in the day any more, and I value my alone time with my husband more than anything.
2) They will all get done eventually as will the housework and my work for work. I think I had a good omen today. My inbox at work shrunk to just six emails for the first time in two years.
It is seriously getting close to the February 5th "Gotcha" date for our family. Stay tuned, I have a full lessons learned post for the 1-year anniversary.
1) Posted the second Christmas posting from Christmas day. Or maybe I haven't because it includes photos of us in our jammies? Hmmmm....
2) Completed the first year photo book I'm putting together to commemorate this first anniversary with Rose. I could be doing that now, but I was too excited to see the Betty White special.
But I don't really care thanks to the past year because I've learned:
1) There aren't enough hours in the day any more, and I value my alone time with my husband more than anything.
2) They will all get done eventually as will the housework and my work for work. I think I had a good omen today. My inbox at work shrunk to just six emails for the first time in two years.
It is seriously getting close to the February 5th "Gotcha" date for our family. Stay tuned, I have a full lessons learned post for the 1-year anniversary.
Monday, January 9, 2012
Carry that weight
This morning everything was hard. I expected it to be. Today was Rose's first day back at school after two weeks off. I didn't expect this much of a challenge though.
I struggled to keep my composure. I lost that battle. I still managed to drop Rose at school with a meal in her tummy, lunch money in her pocket, and a sense of serenity filling her mind. I couldn't recompose myself as quickly, but I pushed through the day trying to do the same with the memories of the morning. I'm becoming better at pretending sometimes.
It really didn't work, and throughout the day this song came to mind. I only know the refrain, but it suited my mood and the doubt filling my mind today. Now I sit unwinding, letting go and forgiving myself.
http://youtu.be/FUUfY6CN8yw
I struggled to keep my composure. I lost that battle. I still managed to drop Rose at school with a meal in her tummy, lunch money in her pocket, and a sense of serenity filling her mind. I couldn't recompose myself as quickly, but I pushed through the day trying to do the same with the memories of the morning. I'm becoming better at pretending sometimes.
It really didn't work, and throughout the day this song came to mind. I only know the refrain, but it suited my mood and the doubt filling my mind today. Now I sit unwinding, letting go and forgiving myself.
http://youtu.be/FUUfY6CN8yw
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