This morning everything was hard. I expected it to be. Today was Rose's first day back at school after two weeks off. I didn't expect this much of a challenge though.
I struggled to keep my composure. I lost that battle. I still managed to drop Rose at school with a meal in her tummy, lunch money in her pocket, and a sense of serenity filling her mind. I couldn't recompose myself as quickly, but I pushed through the day trying to do the same with the memories of the morning. I'm becoming better at pretending sometimes.
It really didn't work, and throughout the day this song came to mind. I only know the refrain, but it suited my mood and the doubt filling my mind today. Now I sit unwinding, letting go and forgiving myself.
http://youtu.be/FUUfY6CN8yw
1 comment:
We all have our good days and bad days. Be easy on yourself....you're human. One night a week or so back, after a particularly hard day, where I felt like I had nagged or crabbed all day.....I went to bed with my last thought being, "Dear Lord, Please help me be a better parent tomorrow." The sun came up and there were hugs and kisses and we all moved on. Hang in there. Hope your evening goes more smoothly. Just breathe.
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